I realize i hardly have anyone to talk to when im emo or whatsoever. juz keeping all inside to myself, being oblivious to the world around me. this sucks. :/

-life is like a box of chocolates, you can choose whatever you want but you won't know how it tastes like
-why don't you understand it hurts when you ignore me
-turn around, every now and then I get tired listening to the sound of ur tears
-I don't wanna run away buy I can't take it i don't understand
-a tear fall from your eye, a tear falls forever in a broken heart
-each happy ending is a brand new beginning
-can't believe that I'm the fool again, I thought this love would never end
-you came without talking but I send u away
-I'm just too far from where you are
-is the heard afraid of breaking, the dream afraid of waking
-your tough is enough to take the pain away
-just when love was mine, I let it go
-let's leave one single memory that you and I had together
-you made me feel so loved, but you left me alone
-one more smile from you and another scar appears on my heart
-I never realise how happy you've made me
-crying on the breeze, the pain is calling
-took my hand, tough my heart
-whenever you smile I can hardly believe that you're mine
-shared the laughter, shared the tears
-I'll always look back as i walk away
-all or our tears will be lost in the rain forever
-is there any way that I can stay in your arms forever?
-trying to forget someone you love is trying to remember someone you never knew
-you kissed me and stop me from shaking
-you became the meaning of my life
-it wasn't my fault I fell for you. you tripped me
-holding your hand, I won't fear tomorrow
-this memory of us will last for eternity
-the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live
-in my arms, that's where you belong
-don't ask me when I'll stop loving you, I'll love you today, tomorrow and forever
-I'm the dream and you're the dreamer
-when I see you I run out of words to say
-I've been touched by the hands of an angel, been blessed by the power of love
-once i thought love was a mirage of the mind, it's fake and impossible to find, but it all changed since the day i fell for you
-I'm not so good with words, since you never notice the way that we belong, I'll sing it in this love song
-I tear my heart open, sew myself shut, my weakness is, I cared too much and the scars remind me that the past is real
-I would give forever for things to stay this way
-I don't want just another pretty face, don't want just another hand to hold
-I like walking in the rain because no one can see me crying
-missing light, hold on the your eyes, missing thought, hold on to your senses, missing heart, I'll hold on to you
-they all ask us to 'fall in love' but end up we always get hurt

My story

• I first wrote this on a piece of paper as a draft during my trial exams...lol..i'll juz copy the exact same thing frm it then.. =)
  
  Dear paper, friends that i used to treasure alot suddenly left me out in the cold all alone, to survive by myself. Can anyone take this betrayal? I dont really know, for some, leave without friends means freedom for live, having no one to rely on and you relying on no one, but being lonely is extremely torturous to some. You can't share ur feelings about anything or anyone with that special someone. Having an ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on, don't you want that too? Of course, it would be just perfect if everything would just fall into place as planned, but life is full of surprises, the next thing you know your best friends end up dying in a tragic accident. They all say that having hard times and breaking down over it keeps you human, but not everyone can handle the impact of these kind of situations. For me, having friends means you can share anything with them, telling your darkest secrets or telling to funniest joke and break into laughter. Having friends to trust means the world to me. Trusting someone is vital in any kind of relationships, from friendship to marriage. But why do people treat me the way they do? Maybe it was something i said or did. Words said can never be taken back and some wounds just won't ever heal. Some say time is the best medicine, but not all wounds can be cured in time, but who knows? Nothing is impossible. Thinking of things like this just make you wanna break down in tears. Have you ever thought of the possibility that you first backstabbed them for them to treat you the way they are treating you now? Of course it's possible, its just that you didn't realise what you said might've hurt them in a way. Sorry is sometimes a word used as an excuse to escape from that something. At times, sorry can cause everything to be the way it was before but it seldom happens but its worth a try. My circle of friends is extremely large and ranges from age 12 to 20 plus, guys and girls alike. After all these years, i came up with a conclusion. In this world, there are 3 types of friends. I classify group one as salutational friends. They're just people you see around and just say a word of 'hi' and that's the extend of that friendship. Second is seasonal friends. They just come and go like the four seasons. One minute you're their best friends and the next, they don't even acknowledge your presence among them, teribble. Last but not least, the third group of friends. This group of friends are friends for life. No matter the distance, they will keep their contact by hook by crook. They go all out just to keep in touch with you by any means. To me? This is the kind of friends you should treasure most. I've friends from all three groups but i treasure them all, why? It is because friends are the next closest thing to you after your family...

I'm back after all these while

time to update my blog...wont be that frequent coz of SPM juz around the corner hope u ppl dont mind =)

NS

YAY i didnt tio NS lols....can enter college in Jan ler....hehehehehehehe Grats to others hu tio-ed

Quotes of the days...

Time passes...love fades...friendship dies...

May u hav enough happiness to keep u sweet,
May u hav enough trials to keep u strong,
May u hav enough sorrows to keep u human, and
enough hope to keep u happy...

Relationships dont last forever, therfore, you and I shall make forever exist...

Love was mine, but I let it slipped away...

You dont need to have my heart, you already have my soul

You were like an angel, you saved me from darkness...

Once i thought love was a mirage of the mind, its fake and impossible to find but it all changed since the day i fell for you, love has been in me and it has never been so real, it has no beginning and knows no end...
To be continued...forgotten le suddenly...=.=

Piano exams are finally over....=)

Ish...its finally over...haha take breath de...=.= haiz...
Now the next issue is SPM...omg...why cant everything juz STOP!!!! argh!!!
Lol...

After this piano exam still got worship team in church? Haiz...every sat got practice...=)

Playing the piano...=.=

Playing piano is nice le...=.= its not that bad after all...hahas...
Will be taking my exams on the 13th of april...
11.15-11.45am...wish me all the best...=) hope i pass le...cannot afford to fail...=(

Holidays are over...

Holidays are finally over...haha....going back to school tmr liao lo...hehe...must work hard...no pain no gain...hehe

My pathetic life...

I wish i could just take some pills and get an overdose over it...my life is dull...=.= studies studies studies...so sien...

Maybe writing a suicide note before taking the pills would be a good act...

Panadol perhaps...Polaramin maybe... who knows? You might actually see my obituary on the newspaper...anytime soon...

Aiyoh...SPM coming leh...

Haix...SPM coming sia...need to study very hard in order to get good grades....1 more year...then it'll all be over...

OBS

Outward Bound Lumut Malaysia...an unforgettable experience...
28th November - 7th December...

!st day : Registration...Ice breaking session...rope climbing...
2nd day : Ice breaking session...again....photo shoot session...kayak training...
3rd day : 1st group expedition...kayak to Pangkor...1 hour...hand almost dropped...repelling...
4th day : Kayak back from Pangkor...1 hour...wash tools...shower...sleep...
5th day : 2nd group expedition...jungle trekked for 2 hours to the campsite...that is only the short cut...tired like hell....ate by the pond...
6th day : Jungle trekked baack again....using the long cut...5 hours of jungle around us...climbed 4 peaks...wash tools...sleep...
7th day : Solo camping....the horror of talking to nature...ate at 5.30pm...slept at 7pm...swt...
8th day : Walked back again...took 30mins to walk back to OBS...
Afternoon - Children from the orphanage came...we played with them...
9th day : Cultural visit to Pangkor Island...better treatment...took a boat there...
Night - barbeque...
10th day : Clossing ceremony...go home...hug here hug there...cried for some reason...

The camp was unforgettable...but some ppl broke the rules...bought cigarattes...alcohol...but still...it was an experience...no one would ever forget...

A change of style...

Im not plannin to be a love guru anymore...

Life is tough...